Sunday, May 31, 2015

Beach days and Daydreams

Last week was challenging on the personal front. Nothing particularly catastrophic happened. Nevertheless, I was in my feelings for the better part of the week and didn’t start pulling it together until the end. My friend also had a bad week on the professional front and decided we needed to hang out. Since we only had morning commitments on Friday and the rest of the day free, we decided to go to the beach. We’re fortunate enough to live about 30 minutes away.

It was just what the doctor ordered. It was sunny with temperatures in the 80's and not a cloud in the sky. We went to a residential area to avoid the touristy, commercial section. I’m convinced the water was bluer than I had ever seen it. As we kicked back on our blankets and took it all in, we began to share our dreams.
I started. I finally gave voice to what I truly want to do when I have the courage to let go of what I think I should do. When I asked her, she hesitated to respond. I watched her tear up as she acknowledged how it hurts to dream, especially when your basic needs aren’t met. She’s done with college and finds herself in the tough position of securing a full time job and applying to graduate schools. For whatever reason, it just hasn’t come easily for her. I remember being exactly where she is- beating down the bushes looking for work, living off of student loans, exploring all options, including relocation, and just living with constant, nagging anxiety. I had some sense that things would work out, but I just didn’t know how or when.
As I listened to my friend, I had an epiphany. I remember like yesterday my prayers for the things I have now. It wasn’t that long ago that I was broke, depressed, and just trying to survive. Now, I have a career and a fairly stable income. Sure, I'm still revising my career path to make it more fulfilling. But, I made it. It seemed so elusive several years ago, but here I am doing everything I set out to do. The lesson here is that if God was able to open doors of opportunity for me, why wouldn’t He also do the same for my friend? And if He showed Himself faithful in my professional life, why wouldn’t He also be faithful to provide in my personal life?
I think we all cycle through times of life marked by frustration and angst-filled waiting followed by joyful fulfillment. For most of us, the things that we feel will never happen usually happen eventually. When they finally do, they create space for new dreams. In the meantime, there are always some small gifts you discover along the way if you have eyes to see beach days and daydreams.

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